My co-workers must think I am dying. I keep missing work for doctor appointments and coming back with bruises on my arms from blood work. I stay exhausted all the time, and I'm developing dark circles under my eyes. I'm distracted and forgetful. I get continuous looks of concern.
99% of them are guys, so I'm pretty sure they don't suspect pregnancy as an option.
The other woman in the office probably has it figured it out, or if not - she's close. She is our receptionist, and sees me coming and going. One day she asked me who my doctor was. I stood there dumbfounded - taken completely off-guard. I couldn't figure out how to get out of the situation without revealing too much.
"Dr. F," I replied timidly. Her response - "Oh, I know him. He goes to my church. I see Dr. B in that office."
Oh my. So, I'm sure she knows. If not, she knows it's something related.
I did tell one of my co-workers that I trust to keep his mouth shut. I thought someone should know in case something happens and I need to leave, be out, etc.
I am having trouble concentrating, and the work days just drag on and on.
My absentmindedness has increased 300%. Not just at work. The day after I took the home pregnancy test, I forgot to wash my hair. Yes, I forgot to wash my hair. (My hair is golden blonde and very fine. It requires everyday washing. Otherwise, it looks oily.) I stood in the shower that morning and took a bath. My hair was wet afterward. It was not until after it dried and I left the house that I realized that I hadn't shampooed it.
Speaking of hair, today it feels weird. I guess it's the time where I stop losing as much hair due to hormonal changes and it begins to feel thicker. I know I washed it today!
Anyway, it's getting harder and harder to disguise my fatigue, nausea, etc. and continue to let my co-workers think that I have a dreaded disease. I'm still going to hold out as long as I can.
BTW - Tomorrow is my ultrasound. We are super-excited and super-nervous.